Wow-what happened?

So I said I was going to blog everyday and I had done pretty well for a while. My trip to Boise was the kicker and got me out of the habit, of both blogging and trying to eat better. My trip was good professionally; I was elected President of the group for all the states. I am the face of the group now and I don't like that it's a fat face. We took pictures at the end of the conference and I couldn't beleive how chubby I looked. It was awful. I have a picture of me in my desk from the first year I attended this conference in 2003. I was SKINNY! Now I compare the 2 photos, 6 years and 30 pounds apart. It's just so sad. I ate horrible while I was gone and have continued to do so ever since. To top that off, I didn't excercise. Well, now that it's behind me, it's going to stay that way. I started fresh yesterday and I had an awsome day. I'll celebrate each daily victory and yesterday was one for sure. I ate super all day long! My one downturn was the orange soda I bought at lunch. I told myself not to get it, but it was hot out and I was going for a walk at lunch after I ran a couple errands so I grabbed the pop anyway. I learned my lesson last night at Guts and Butts because I worked my ass off for a full 45 minutes and only burned enough calories to compensate for the pop. Are you kidding me? So I had to work my ass off for another 45 minutes. I guess I can take that lesson with me and not drink that stuff anymore. I am on to just water for a while. So yesterday I ate great, went for a walk at lunch, had a good day at work, went to Guts and Butts and had a good workout. When I got home, I had a bowl of cereal and an egg beater for protein, then sweat my ass off some more cleaning the bathroom. I was in a good mood all day, accomplished some things I wanted to and went to bed knowing I had a good day. It was the best feeling.

AUGH!

I can't post all of what I consumed yesterday. I ate so much I don't recall. I do recall supper tho-my husband is a wonderful cook. He made halibut (yummy), with beets and cukes from our garden and homemade lemonade that he and Gavyn made. I know lunch was a ham sandwich on ww bread with a slice of provolone, a snack size of pringles, and broc/caulf/carrots in ranch veggie dip and a diet coke. Later, I had another diet coke in the afternoon and ya, and a beer and popcorn before bed. I know I ate 4 brownies yesterday and 2 handfuls of hershey kisses. I had some crackers with sqeeze cheese and a cheese stick before bed, a cookie at Gryffen's school and 2 toaster muffin tops for breakfast. Take all that junk and add to that the fact that I did not go to the gym again yesterday and I'll know why I can't do the pilates plank tonight at guts and butts. I swear yesterday was an exercise for my jaws rather than anything else. What is wrong with me? No wonder I couldn't find any pants this morning that fit. Today will be a better day!

What happened?

Yesterday was not the best eating day nor did I make it to the gym. I started off ok with breakfast, which was malt-o-meal, then veggies for a snack, but that wasn't doing the trick, so I had some wheat thins with squeeze cheese. How is that stuff even cheese; you don't have to refrigerate it? Lunch was a slice of pizza and a couple sips of coke at a benefit lunch we went to. I won't feel guilty about that because it helped one family defray some medical costs. The son played baseball with Gavyn this summer, so we are glad we could do our part. I had some cherries and a brownie for a snack. I did not have time to get to the gym as we had 2 appointments after work. After both appointments, we went to Johnny Carino's for supper. It was good and the boys both even had left-overs. We waited for dessert until we got home where my husband had purchased the brownie bite things from Sam's club yesterday. They were not as good as usual, they were very dry, but I managed to shove 3 or 4 of them in my mouth before stopping. We did a number of projects and crossed off some of the items on our 'to-do' list and tucked the boys in. Brent and I managed to complete a few more 'to-dos' and I reached for a bed snack about 10:30, then decided I wasn't hungry and didn't need anything to eat. He left to head to Walmart to get another 'to-do' completed and I opened the fridge. He wasn't there to see what I would eat, so I was going to pig out. I didn't!!! That was my one and only victory for the day, but it was a very big one! My goal is to hit the gym tonight. We are having fish of some sort for supper, so that should be healthy; either salmon or halibut and beets for sure since our garden is over-run with them. It's easy to see how quickly one can get off track. I didn't go to the gym yesterday and already I feel like I failed when comparing it to 4 times last week alone! I will not let this set me back, but rather I will get thru one day at a time.

Little Energy

So, last night I did not have a snack with protein in it prior to going to Guts and Butts. I was so tired and lifeless. I was hungry afterwards so I went home and horked down a plate of nachos (chips with melted cheese and salsa). If you try to justify eating it like I do, then here goes; the chips were my grain, the cheese my calcium and the salsa, veggies, so it was almost a well-balanced meal! I get it-that's not right!! After that, I too had a skinny cow ice cream bar-wow was that yummy! Thanks to my sons and husband, there are fewer of those in the freezer now. At first I thought, great they are eating all my treats, then I realized that they were having a healthier snack too. (sometimes hindsight makes me realize it's not always all about me!) After all of that, Gavyn asked me to go on a bike ride. We went what felt like miles after working my legs so hard at my class. It was maybe only a mile total, but it felt really good; for 2 reasons. One-because I was doing something with my son that HE wanted to do and Two-because it was good for me. What a way to cap off the day! I may not have lost any weight yesterday, but I enjoyed a very nice evening with my family and that speaks to my health too!

Weekend Weakness

If any of you reading this recall, I did say I was going to give up beer for a while. I told myself after 5 or 10 pounds, I would reward myself with a cold beer. Well, I am off the wagon already and not because I lost the requisite poundage. We went to Leek Lake in MN this weekend with some friends to their cabin. I think there is something about being at the lake and a requirement of beer drinking, but that could just be me.... Friday night after work started off bad for food. We were late getting out of town, so we stopped by Arby's for a quick sandwich (it was not quick as we sat in the drive-thru for over 25 minutes and they messed up my order!!). I had a roast beef sandwhich with 1 potato patty thing-kinda like a little hash brown patty. I hate those curly fries, so I ordered the patty thing. I drank water and had 2 pieces of licorice and 2 hershey kisses on the way. When we got to the cabin around 11:00, I had 2 pina colada's and some pretzels. Breakfast the next day was 2 small cinnamon roll things and coffee. Lunch was taco salad and fresh fruit and a scotcheroo. About 2:00, I cracked my first beer. After about 4 or 5, I decided to get my arms in shape by clinging to the tube as we were sailing around the lake. I got in a few swimming laps as my graceful body planted itself in the drink more than once. After the 2nd time and feeling a little like barfing, I had had enough of the dragging and got back in the boat for another beer. Supper was lasagna and garlic bread, both of which were small pieces, a brownie and a scotcheroo. One more beer by the campfire and to bed early. Breakfast Sunday morning was a breakfast taco (nummy!!); a soft shell taco with browned sausage, scrambled eggs and cheese. I had a couple cups of coffee too. Lunch was a burger and more fresh fruit and before hitting the boat for the afternoon, another scotcheroo and a beer and finally one more beer for the ride. I tried tubing again and this time, did not fall out which is a good thing because Gryffen was on my lap and I was terrified he would fall out, but he loved every second of it as did Gavyn. We left the cabin about 5:15 to begin the long ride home. I had a couple hershey kisses, some licorice and a sprite on the way. I have not had any pop for about 2 weeks, so it tasted so good, yet not very good if that makes sense. We stopped in Jamestown and grabbed a Little Ceaser's pizza and stopped at our lake cabin on the way home. We got home about 9:30 and I had a tiny scotcheroo before bed. I swear I am not making those things for a really long time because I love them so much I can't stay away from them. I had taken my running stuff to go running each morning, but we couldn't seem to get going, so while the weekend was fun and I drank beer and ate some junk, I will not get discouraged. Today already has been an ok eating day so far and I will go to Guts and Butts tonight. My friend and I are meeting earlier than the class to get a walk in.

Tiny food set-back

Yesterday I did semi-ok for eating (until evening anyway). I had oatmeal for breakfast, a special K bar thing for a snack, blueberries, veggies (with a tiny bit of ranch dipping), a ham sandwich for lunch on 12 grain ww bread, snack was cherries and peanut butter. I went to Guts and Butts. It was better this time; I think because I knew what to expect. Afterwards I was starving. Here's where the set-back comes in. I ate one chicken nugget on the way home. (It was left over from Gryffen's supper as he had to come to class with me until Brent could pick him up about 6:15. He didn't eat his whole Happy Meal and I was hoping Brent would see it and take it with but he didn't, so it was in the car and I was starving so I ate the lone remaining nugget). I should have thrown it in the garbage before I even left the park so it wouldn't be in the car, but I didn't. One single nugget doesn't sound so bad, but here comes the bad part. When I got home it was about 8:15 and I was starving. I made some egg beaters with a little shredded cheese on them (more than I should have but less than I really wanted). I had 3 taco dorito chips, then made scotcheroos, which wasn't bad until I licked the frosting pan, then I cut up some watermelon, cantelope & pineapple. I had to eat some of each, then before bed I ate a small scotcheroo. I think for me it was that I hadn't really had any sweets in about 4 days (other than fruit) and it was late when I ate again (after 8:00). I need to be more aware of this. Maybe I can put some veggies in a lunch bag on the nights when I have Guts and Butts so I munch on those on the way home rather than hork out when I get home. Remember, I'm supposed to have Post Raisin Bran after a work-out, not scotcheroos!! I did not get much water in yesterday either. I only got in maybe 40 ounces. So today needs to be a good day to get back on track. We are heading to MN this weekend with some friends to their cabin. I will NOT eat like a pig. I will eat healthy, like how about the burger without the bun and the fruit I cut up? I am not even taking any beer; only water!! I also packed my running clothes, so I plan to get in at least a light jog or a long walk or maybe both! So I will not post until Monday, but I will post about how the weekend was.

Funny about the bread

Looking at SheShe's comment, I didn't realize just how much bread I ate yesterday. It's a little embarrassing after seeing it on paper all together. I have tried 'tricking' myself into the 2-sandwhiches thing sometimes too! I can't do that with ham tho because the sight of it grosses me out; gotta keep it covered. I will change my breakfast to eggs. I liked the malt-o-meal because it seems to 'stick' with me a little longer. However, I do really like the egg beaters, so i can have those in the morning, perhaps with a little salsa and make it like an omlet? Thanks for making me see just how many carbs I'm horking down.